Chalana McFarland – 1st offender – 30 years – Clemency Pending
Marital Status: Married
Children: 1 daughter age 16
Will release to: Atlanta, Georgia
Charges: Mortgage fraud (bank fraud/wire fraud/money laundering/obstruction of justice/perjury)
Sentence: 30 years
Served to date: 13 years
Started sentence on: 2/15/05
Prison Conduct: Exemplary disciplinary record. One low level infraction for “refusing to work” when I reported to my regular work detail instead of a voluntary lockdown detail at the USP while housed at camp at Coleman FL
Clemency Status: Pending at the U.S. Pardon Attorney’s Office. Petition submitted by CP14 on 3/31/16 File#:C182213
Supporters: CANDO Foundation, family, friends, attorney – Lynn Fant
Institution: Tallahassee FCI
Accomplishments: The greatest thing I have ever accomplished is being the mother of 16-year-old
Nia Imani who is an honor student and currently serves as President of her Junior Class.
Additional accomplishments in prison: I began by tutoring Chinese and African detainees in English while in county jail. Once transferred to the FBOP, I participated in the PAWS4PRISONS program where I trained assistance dogs for disabled children and veterans. My dog, Lia was placed with a disabled Marine. I co-founded the IAM (Inmates Ascending Mentoring) Program and G.R.I.T.S. (Girls Raised in the South) a re-entry initiative for inmates from the Southeast. I have been a member of CHOICES, a group of inmates who travel monthly into the local Tallahassee community and speak with at-risk youth. I served as an inmate arbitrator, suicide companion, newsletter co-editor, release preparation and re-entry facilitator, facilitator for the READING IS FUNDAMENTAL program, Lean Six Sigma, and completed vocational trainings as a Certified Dog Obedience Trainer, Business Education and Advanced Business Education. I am currently working on my Master’s Degree in Church Administration through International Christian College & Seminary.
Education: I graduated cum laude from Florida A&M University in 1991 with a B.S. in Journalism. I received a Doctor of Jurisprudence from John Marshall Law School in Atlanta GA in April 1996.
According to Chalana:
Remorse is a ghost that haunts my life. It is hard to express the sorrow I feel about the choices I made that led to my incarceration. I am ashamed of my actions. Its more than just mere embarrassment or regret. It is a deep hurt that makes me wonder if I will ever feel whole again. Countless days I have laid in my bunk reliving my mistakes over and over. If I could go back in time, I would do so many things differently.
At first I laid the blame at the feet of all my co-conspirators. They duped me…they tricked me…they lied to me. Even though on many levels all of that is true, at the end of the day, I am responsible for the behavior that I chose to engage in. I, solely, am responsible for my incarceration. That fact was a bitter pill to swallow. At times, I wondered if I was worthy of redemption after all the pain and embarrassment I caused my family and the harm to my community.
A recurrent nightmare I have is that my greatest fear comes to pass and everyone in my family dies off or forgets about me. I have seen countless friends and family members fall by the wayside over the past 12 years. My parents are in their 70s and their health is failing. I have one daughter, who at the age of 16, will soon embark on her own life. If I lose my parents, will my daughter consider me a burden? Will I miss her graduations, wedding, and the birth of her children as I have all the other events in her life so far? She was three years old when I was sent to prison to begin serving a 30-year sentence as a first-time nonviolent offender. I committed mortgage fraud and I will be 62 years old when I am released from prison.
What kind of life would have when I am released as a senior citizen? I had hard choices to make about how I was going to survive incarceration. The first step was realizing that despite my fervent wishes, I cannot change the past. I decided to become the best person that I could be from that day forward. Prison strips you down to your true self. Every aspect of your individual identity is challenged. One must decide who one is and what one believes.
Over the last decade, I have gotten to know my true self and I like her. I have learned that family is the most important treasure you can ever have in your life and I am so thankful for mine. I also came to the realization that the world owes me nothing. I owe a debt to my daughter that can never be repaid because my choices left her motherless. I know she loves me and I pray that someday when she is old enough to grasp it all that she will forgive me.
When Pres. Obama’s clemency initiative was announced, I began to hope that somehow God might grant me a second chance. I celebrated with each of the ladies I knew that received clemency. I saw lives be restored and I wondered if someday I would also be granted a reprieve. All I need is another chance. I know that I will be able to move forward and be an asset to my family and community.
I humble ask for your support and continued prayers as I seek clemency.
A message from Chalana’s daughter, Nia:
I am Nia Cosby, the 16-year-old daughter of Chalana McFarland. I am an Honor, Advanced Placement and an International Baccalaureate student at Valdosta High School in Valdosta, GA. I was elected Junior Class President and I am also in Future Business Leaders of America (FBLA), Leadership Lowndes, Delta Gems as well as several other clubs and organizations. I am also the founder of CHIPS (Children of Incarcerated Parents) because I am one of the thousands of children in this country who has an incarcerated parent. I am writing to express how important it is for me to have my mother at home with me.
I live with my grandparents who are retired and in their 70’s. They have done the best they can with raising me considering their age, health problems and fixed income. Last year, we almost lost my Grandpa to a heart attack and my Granny is blind in one eye so I must drive her around if Grandpa can’t. They need my mother home to help. I will graduate in 2018 and go off to college but I sometimes wonder if I will be able to leave when the time comes. Who will take care of them? I am certain if my mother was home and could help raise me in a more hands on manner, it would ease my grandparent’s stress and help them be able to enjoy their lives. Plus, I could go off to college and not have to worry if Grandpa has taken his medicine or if Granny has fallen again.
My mother has always tried to be active in my life and has had a hand in guiding me and raising me even if only by letter and telephone. She has instilled values such as integrity, compassion, humility, and accountability in me. Yet, there were so many times, I longed for her to be with me in person. She was never able to attend any of my dance recitals, concerts, school awards, basketball games or graduations. I can remember crying for her when I was sick or not understanding why she couldn’t leave with me when we went to visit her. One time when I was about 7 or 8, I even begged the officer to let us take her to McDonald’s to eat with me and promised to bring her right back. Last year while visiting my mother, I had to remove my bra in order to visit her because the metal detector kept beeping. I spent the whole visit wearing a windbreaker buttoned up to my neck in July and crying because I was so humiliated that the officer had made me take it off in order to come in. My mother sat at the table, held my hand and tears filled her eyes as she saw my pain.